Life...

Sometimes (like now) I get mad thinking about "life". How tricky it is and how it takes you places that you don't really want to be. I've been also thinking about life's choices. Man, that's tough. I look at my life now. I have a wonderful job (with what my career has to offer), but soon I'm going to have to make a choice between career and love. Give it up for something maybe not so great. When is it right to pick your career over moving close to the person you love? Or love and give up a job you love with great pay that you probably won't find anywhere else? Being a dance teacher doesn't really come with hundreds of job opportunities with great pay. I guess I could have picked a better major in college, but there you go again... choices. I picked love over money then. I love dancing so much and I believe that doing a job you love is more important than doing a job that makes you miserable but reaps a fat paycheck. That seems to be the burning question in my life... Money or Love. I look at where I live now. I hate this area . And I miss my family. I miss my family being in ONE place. Now we're all over the place and I don't see us being in one place ever again. Wow, that upsets me. I love my family more than anything, but I needed to come out here for many reasons. Growth and experiences are some reasons. Now my job and job choices has me stuck here, plus my heart strings tugged me to Maryland. I wish the USA was smaller. I look over past choices I've made and wonder if they were the right ones. Was I really hearing from God... and if I wasn't then I'm not sure I'll ever know what God is saying. I know I'm loosing you.... now I'm just thinking aloud. All that I do know is that I have some really important decisions to make soon. And I need God fully apart of every single one of them. And I need to trust that past decisions had his help also and put them behind me. I'm thankful that I'm only 4 hours from all my family and I pray that it will never be more than that. I pray that I figure things out and possibly start another new chapter in the life of Genevieve.