ho hum... :/

My mood has been off lately. Not depressed, just... disappointed I guess. Could be womanly causes... idk.

First: Zumba dance fizzled out. It wasn't as exciting as I thought. So I decided not to pay 250 dollars to become certified in it.

Second: The Kenya performance fundraiser un-invited us. The director wants a shorter show, so only their studio is dancing.

Third: Myself and how am disappointed with how I handle some things. I was reminded of a exercise we did in the Crazy Love series at church. They said to take the Bible verse: 1Cr 13:4-8

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  ⁸Love never fails.

And instead of Love, put your name in it. This is what you should strive to be:

Gen is patient, Gen is kind. She does not envy, she does not boast, she is not proud. Gen is not rude, Gen is not self-seeking, She is not easily angered, She keeps no record of wrongs. Gen does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Gen always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Genevieve never fails.

Almost hurts to say it out loud, because it's not true. These are characteristics of the holy almighty God, not me. Jed and I had a conversation about speaking things into truth and moreover, being faithful in believing that it's true. So maybe I should say this aloud at least once a day..... so I can start making progress towards becoming more Christ-like (ie. Love).






A prayer I just said:
Please be with me as life has its up and downs and changes. Help me be ready for whatever you have for me day by day. Help me to be patient and worry free. Help me to be kind and loving to everyone. Help me not envy others or get jealous. Don’t let me boast or be too proud, but to give all my good deeds to you. Help me not to be angered, but forgiving to everyone for anything that has hurt in my past. Help me turn away from things of the flesh and world. Please forgive me for my sins. Help me run after your truth! Draw me closer. Help me protect love ones, always be trusting of others, always hope for better things, and persevere in my life and walk with you. Help me understand that there are no failures, but only lessons. Good come from all things.